Get Together

this video is odd but the song is dope,j*davey is definitely a highly underrated duo

Shame

i swear if college wasn't a necessity i would not go back. Mainly because i dislike the environment i'm in. You know college is suppose to be one of the best experiences of your life so "they say". First priority is to keep your grades on good. Second priority at least to me is to make new acquaintances. Man on my campus i can safely say that i have too many of those. But the thing that pisses me off with them is that they only talk to me when we're at school. That disturbs the hell out of me. I've texted and called damn near everyone in my area that i go to school with. Out of like 20 people only 2 hit me back. Of course i mostly have girls numbers than anything but man i think i talk to a bunch of bitches. That what they are to me. I'm so tired of getting walked all over on by these bitches. I don't even try to talk to them like i'm attempting to start a relationship. I just don't understand em and i'm not going to waste my time trying to. From now on i'm really going to speak my mind to them. I really can care less about anyone feelings anymore. They all can choke on their spit. This spring break has to be the worst one i've ever had. *flash coward* Today had to be one of the worst days i've had in a while. Minus everyone ignoring my phone calls and texts i got a check today, nothing serious but hey money is money,so when i try to go deposit it the machine cancelled my transaction. I almost broke the machine but i just walked out. I called my father complainin cursing up a storm. i calmed down after a while and called my bank. So now i have to wait til tomorrow. I was highly disturbed today i actually still am. I try to not let things get to me but a man can only endure but so much til he just says fuck it. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. But i doubt that cuz no one really seems care to talk to a nigga anymore. I get pretty lonely i already feel like i'm lonely at school and now i feel the same way at home. Losing my mom is probably the biggest factor for that.

What would you do

So i hung out with a old friend today. long story short we talked about how money pretty much runs this world. He strongly believes that money can solve all his problems. I really can't say the same. Sure i would love to have a nice amount of money, but i know that it will not solve all my issues. Alot of issues can't be resolved with a check with a huge sum of money. For example money will not bring back a lost loved one. And money damn sure doesn't bring happiness, you can lie to yourself and say your happy for the moment but deep down in due time you'll start to realize that money really isn't all that. At least i realize that and i'm far from wealthy. Yea i like luxurious cars, clothes, and homes but thats not my drive in life. If thats honestly all you want out of life then your on the road for a rough corrupted life. On another note we also talked about how i'm really not into alot of these mainstream artist. For one i can't relate to any of them, i'm not swimming in women, making money and eating fish eggs. My biggest reason of all is that most of them are liars in their rhymes. I'm not appeased at all by this trapping phase or how you can get a gun and shoot mike, bobby and etc. I rather listen to someone like joe budden, jay electronica, j.cole or whatever. Yea i bump some young jeezy here and there but only for entertainment i don't listen to him to try to learn a life lesson. O and one more thing i would like to know if you had a chance to blow up in the industry what would you do, stay true to yourself and your fans and keep your demeanor on a morality level and probably not have a huge fan base but still make a decent amount of money or would you rather be a sell out with a fake ass fan base and make millions??? The answer to this question is solely based on your character and your morals on life. Me personally i'd rather be true to myself and fans sure i probably wouldn't be a millionaire but at least i can sleep with a good conscious.

@ the end of the day

I don't care what no one says everyone is judgmental. I'll admit it i am to a certain extent. But i am not judgmental to a point where i act like mr. o so righteous. i dislike people who try to perceive themselves like they are. i had a friend like that. Isn't it weird how you never realize something about someone until you have a fall out with them??? Any ways i'm on spring break right now and so far it's been boring as hell. People acting funnier than the weather. I'm really starting to get aggravated with people back at home. for here on out i'ma start livin solely for myself. if anyone has a problem with that then i'll just handle them accordingly. I put to much emphasis on others. I'll admit thats one of my biggest flaws. i think just because, i've known someone for a while or their fam that their obligated to be there for me. Wrong in this society that shit don't matter at least not in todays society.

Mid Term Week

Probably one of the best weeks i've had so far this semester. Maybe its the weather or the people i'm around but either way the past few days have been great minus the random nightmares i'm continue to have. Along with that i approached a few youngins here and there. All i can say about that is the right women at the wrong time. I swear the best potential females are always in a relationship. I mean i could probably still get em but making a girl drop her man for you pretty much shows she'll do the same to you so i'll save a lot of time and thought and keep it movin. On another light note the weather has been so good these past few days. matter fact it's 70 degree's right now without a cloud in sight. man i'm anticipating spring break like it's christmas. Thankfully i take my last midterm tomorrow morning which i'm confident that i'll do well on. So since i'm leavin tomorrow i might as well pack now.
-Amani

I mean damn

ight so theres this girl i used to talk to a long time ago. i basically stopped talking to her cuz flat out the bitch is crazy and weird. so lately i've tried to be friendly to her but man she's making it really hard for me. like everytime i hit her up she just acts super short with me. I'm like damn can you at least attempt to fake like your trying to have some type of small talk. like i'm tempted at this point to just flat out carry her. I can't stand how one minute she wants to wrap me up about irrelevant shit but when i try to start a convo she acts reticent. so i always ask her if she busy doing work or somethin. she always claims to be but if thats the case why the fuck are you on oovoo or facebook knowing that gonna distract you??? so from now on i'ma leave the dumb broad alone she's not worth my time. On another note i guess you can call me a trendsetter. no conceited sense intended but man my room mate loves to buy the same shit i buy. after this past weekend we have the same exact shoes. Why the fuck would bam out to a point where we have 4 pairs of the same shoes??? Yes i'm well aware that they make more than one pair for a reason but you didn't want them until you saw em on my feet. i clearly said aye seriously don't buy those shoes man. but instead he pretty much said nigga fuck you i'm spoiled so i'ma ask my parents to buy em. See unlike him pretty much all my shoes with a few x-mas gift pairs i've bought with my own money that i hustled to get. Now that probably sounds jealous to some of you but i see it as just being a flat out jackass.

People Make Me Sick

College kids are idiots. well at least freshmen are. i remember when i first started going to school i knew like 7 girls i was pretty cool with. Now out of the 7 i only talk to two of them. and the funny part is i thought those would be the last girls i'd still befriend. the rest of them are still trying to find themselves i guess. or maybe i'm just making an excuse for them because, their scared of being themselves so they decided to fit in with the crowd and forget about where they came from and who they really are. I don't like people like that. If you can't stand up for yourself then your one weak minded individual. Whats so scary about being different??? I don't have a problem with not being another nigga in the crowd. In fact i prefer to be that way, the less people know about you the less attention and drama you go through. Pepuople are funny how they put themselves out there for others to see about them then finally when they get negative feedback from others their haters. Man shut that noise up apparently you want people to voice their opinions about you because if you didn't you wouldn't broadcast you whole life to everyone.

As of late

i've been pretty good lately. the only issue i've had lately was some random reoccurring nightmares. For some odd reason they've been about people attempting to jump me. i honestly don't seem to see a reason why someone would attempt a cowardly act. I talk to my father about and he wants me to see a psychiatrist. I might actually take up the idea. maybe its some things in my conscience i need talk about.