Alter Ego

everyone has a alter ego.people use them for various reasons. for example when someone breaks into your house you don't greet them like their your friend you say something like "who the fuck is in my house". i try not to use mine unless i'm trying to protect myself. as of late though it seems like some bitches(yea thats what they are to me @ this point)like to start shit with me for no apparent reason. One of my friends told me that i should never argue with a female because you won't win. He's right to an extent. i'm getting better at just saving my breath. but it's challenging. Usually when someone provokes me i just curse them out.But now i just look at them and shake my head or i just say "your really not worth my time or i'm getting to old to argue". For the most part i'm getting better at avoiding arguments though.

I Keeps It Real

So i decided to formulate some reasons why a girl wouldn't want to talk to me.

1. I'm seen as a brother figure. i honestly don't know where the hell this comes from. I guess i'm too nice at times @ least thats one of the few excuses i hear.

2. I'm an asshole. i hear this on a few occasions. mostly because i just speak my mind. i really don't like to lie about anything.

3. I'm too skinny. i only weigh 150. personally i don't have a insecurity about my weight. But now for some odd reason alot of girls say i'm real skinny when i'm really not i think i'm average size plus i got a lil muscle mass since i do push ups on the regular.

4. I'm not an ass kisser. Sorry but i'm not the type of guy to tell you what you want to hear all the time. i mainly do that because, most of the time when a guy is complementing you all the time and never say anything else about you,he's probably just trying to get some temporary action.

5. I'm not a crowd pleaser. I'm not into mainstream music, i hardly watch music videos, i don't party every single weekend, and i don't wear the same clothes that everyone finds fashionable(ok i got a few polo button ups)

6. i drive a '99 vw passat. now i love my car to death but i actually had a girl flat out laugh me out because, i drove a VW. personally i could careless cuz i think my car is the best(not to be confused with being conceited just confident) besides it's my first car and it runs pretty damn good and it's far from a hoopty.

7. My hair isn't always done. at least when i'm at school it's pretty damn hard to find a girl willing to do my hair for a reasonable price. so sometimes i do look pretty rough on some days.

Well i can't think of any other reasons why a girl wouldn't want to start a relationship with me but at the end of the day if someone can't accept you for who you are then you shouldn't be together in the first place.

Whats in rotation now

These past few days i've been on my R&b stuff. I just got into this group called J*Davey. Their pretty good for the most part. i don't know if everyone would really be into off one song but they'll grow on you i got their album The Beauty In Distortion/Land of the Lost. if your a fan of M.i.a, santigold or even outcast then you'll like this album. For my next analysis i just found marsha ambrosius who was apart of the amazing duo known as floetry. sadly they parted ways last year for personal reasons. now i'm not feeling every track off her mixtape but it's a few keepers on it. Like this track called Take Care the beat with her voice will put you in a the zone. And last but not least finally R&B's best kept secret teedra moses put her new mixtape out on valentines day known as Royal patience. She brought a few good tracks out i'm far from disappointed with mixtape. Now it's time for her to drop that young lioness album. well in the meantime since downloading mixtapes are legal i'll bless you guys with links to the teedra and marsha mixtapes. Remember to always support good music. Also if anyone wants some more of teedra moses music i got two other mixtapes from her so just let me know.

http://www.Teedra-Moses.com/

here's marsha's mixtape
http://sharebee.com/b72516e7

This new decade of artist piss me off

Mainly becausewhen they get a little buzz they get super lazy. I've been patiently waiting for a few mixtapes lately and so far none of them have dropped. The first one was jay electronica's act II mixtape. That nigga ain't made a mixtape in over a year and then when he finally decides to make it he doesn't even drop it. last time i checked he decided to put the blame on nas because he never sent a verse for a song for the tape. I call bullshit on that one. Then i've been waiting on curren$y smokey robinson mixtape that was suppose to drop during halftime of the super bowl. right now half time has been past and yet still no link to the mixtape???What the hell is the deal man???Then last but not least Young Jeezy Trap or Die 2 mixtape. The first one got him pretty much to where he's at today. It was suppose to drop yesterday and now another no show. I remember watching a 2pac documentary this past saturday. They said that he record the The Don Killuminati The 7 Day Theory album in 7 days. There is no artist today that anyone can name that does anything of that nature. And please don't say lil wayne cuz i honestly don't think he even thinks out any of his ryhmes he just throws the shit together. This fact pretty much shows you that artist just do this music stuff for money and hype. They don't do it for the art anymore. Thus the reason why i honestly don't care for to many current artist cuz i know there filled with bullshit

My weekend

Well it all started on friday before a lick of snow even dropped. My original plan was to go pick up my refund check and catch a ride home with a friend. So i decided to notify my father and he just gets all bitchy for no reason. He kept asking me what would i do if i came home and i was like the same thing i would do if i was at school do some work and chill. So he was like don't come home. he decided to complain about how would i get home. I was like i already have that handled. I honestly don't know why he's worried about all this stuff because he never ever pick's me up from school and he never except one time brought me back to school. Times like this i really wish my mom was still alive cuz she would have probably come home. The older i get the older the more respect i'm losing for my dad. it's like ever since i went off to college he act like i can't go home. I need to get close with one of my relatives around the way cuz if it's really that big of an issue for me to go back to my own house then i rather not be there. Later on friday i decided to hit a party up on campus. It was pretty fun i mean nothing different from any other college party. One thing that i still don't understand til this day is why do girls go to parties and not dance @ all. like that defeats the purpose of partying. towards the end of the party i guess a fight broke out,all i saw was a couple of bloody shirts and one guy layed out on the floor trembling. So today since it's a blizzard i'ma just do a little homework and join this snow ball fight later on today.

I don't

care too much for valentines day. I swear people sice it up more year after year. I remember the last time i actually bought a girl something for valentines day. It was freshmen year of high school(damn i miss that year) and it was this one girl i was feeling real hard. So one of our mutual friends told me i should buy her something for valentines day. So i asked my parents for some money of course and i went out and bought her some perfume made her a gift basket with my pic on it and had the standard box of chocolate. Finally valentines day hit and i walked up to her with ice water running through my veins and gave her the basket. All i got was a lil phone number in return. So a few days went by and i was hoping me and her would get closer. Sadly though nothing happened between me and her. She ended up transferring to another high school anyway. I wasn't too mad about the situation because back in 9th grade i was "the man" LOL. Not trying to sound conceited but man i use to go on coutless dates with various females every weekend all thanks to some connects i had. But now man i'm on a cold streak i can't keep up with a female with more than 2 weeks. I've grown tired of trying to work out issues with women. i think it's purposeless. Like i read on this one youngin blog "You can't change people and don't expect them to change for you."