Sigh

it's not of releif. i'm jus so tired of how my life's goin right now. i really dislike being broke. homecoming comin up this weekend and i can't even party cuz i can't afford it. i really dislike the fact that my dad is my only source of money. if i don't get it from him then i don't get it from anyone else. school on the other hand i guess is going well. i have idea how any of my grades are looking right now. all i can do is continue to do my homework every night. with every blog post that i write i seem sound worse and worse. my tolerance with females out here is officially slim. i honestly don't care anymore. when i'm trying to be a nice guy to them they like to pluck my nerves. shit reminds me of high school all over again. i'm just gonna stop paying them any mind from now on. i remember for health i was suppose change something about myself,so i decided to try to have a more positive outlook on life. honestly i can no longer attempt to think positive when i have so many negatives stand out more often than anything else.