Shame

i swear if college wasn't a necessity i would not go back. Mainly because i dislike the environment i'm in. You know college is suppose to be one of the best experiences of your life so "they say". First priority is to keep your grades on good. Second priority at least to me is to make new acquaintances. Man on my campus i can safely say that i have too many of those. But the thing that pisses me off with them is that they only talk to me when we're at school. That disturbs the hell out of me. I've texted and called damn near everyone in my area that i go to school with. Out of like 20 people only 2 hit me back. Of course i mostly have girls numbers than anything but man i think i talk to a bunch of bitches. That what they are to me. I'm so tired of getting walked all over on by these bitches. I don't even try to talk to them like i'm attempting to start a relationship. I just don't understand em and i'm not going to waste my time trying to. From now on i'm really going to speak my mind to them. I really can care less about anyone feelings anymore. They all can choke on their spit. This spring break has to be the worst one i've ever had. *flash coward* Today had to be one of the worst days i've had in a while. Minus everyone ignoring my phone calls and texts i got a check today, nothing serious but hey money is money,so when i try to go deposit it the machine cancelled my transaction. I almost broke the machine but i just walked out. I called my father complainin cursing up a storm. i calmed down after a while and called my bank. So now i have to wait til tomorrow. I was highly disturbed today i actually still am. I try to not let things get to me but a man can only endure but so much til he just says fuck it. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. But i doubt that cuz no one really seems care to talk to a nigga anymore. I get pretty lonely i already feel like i'm lonely at school and now i feel the same way at home. Losing my mom is probably the biggest factor for that.