I miss her

for those who don't know i lost my mother earlier this week. i can't sit here and fake like i don't miss my mom cuz i really do. i really haven't been cryin like that cuz i still hasn't hit me. man even though we had fallouts we still seemed to make up. i remember the last time i got a good look @ her right outside my room. she was getting ready to leave out to go meet up with some friends. she asked me how'd her outfit looked. and of course she coordinated like she always does. it was this yellow shirt i can't recollect the pants and she had some nice yellow shoes. i told her she looked good. so she left but then she 4got her wallet and my dad wanted me to go outside and give it to her. we held our last conversation outside my house. we was just talkin about some of her friends and i walked away and she left. man i really wish i could have told her i loved her @ least that way i would feel a tad bit better. i still remember her voice and everything and i got all her quotes playin through my head. like " i killed a nigga that looked like you and u know who that was?" i'd say "who" she say "your father" and we would just laugh. or my favorite one she used on me and my brother " you feelin froggy then leap anytime" then one day my brother said back to her "i'm feelin a little froggy right now" lol. my dads getting better day by day. i'm glad to see how many people care for us. i really appreciate my friends for hangin out with me yesterday. man we was lunchin @ ihop last night. i also went to prom this past friday. alot of people where shocked to see me but i know my mom would curse me out if i woulda skipped it especially after i paid for my tickets. man i had about 3 different dates. and all of them made up some odd excuses. the foulest one of them all though was the one that decided not to go the day of prom. but it's all good though cuz i found my date later that day. and we had a hell of a time. i didn't make it home til like 2. i was gonna go to some after parties but i was way to tired. i have to say these past few days have been pleasant even though of the circumstances. only thing i wish is that my life was always this way, with all my dads hilarious co workers and all my hilarious friends. well i really don't have much more to say right now so i'll blog it up later. but aye to all the people that have been pming me on iss and emailing me please do me a favor and be patient,i'll get more shoes,prices, size etc. later just hit up that youngkapas84@yahoo.com if you have any questions.