finally got out of my dorm cell. I'm not going to lie yes i'm bored out my mind right now. but i rather be @ home bored than be on campus bored. I know that sounds dumb but whatever. Anyone that goes to a boring school knows exactly what i mean. I back to harsh reality at home though. still broke as a bad joke. It's like the more i want the less money i have. The older my father gets the cheaper he gets with me. Now i understand the whole i'm a young man blah blah shit but man i can't find a fuckin job anywhere. I applied for jobs before i even got out for xmas break. Sadly no one decided to come through. So i talked to my father about what i want for xmas this year i just asked for to pair of shoes. This nigga said how much money am i puttin towards. Gave him the "Nigga are you serious face". I rarely ask my father for money when i'm at school unless i seriously need it.This whole semester i only bought one thing and that was a hoody from H & M that i bought with a card my mom gave me last xmas. So i mean something has got to give with my dad. I hate how he acts like he's so broke when he don't spend money on shit. Where the fuck is all his money goin??? Damn sure ain't going in my corner. I don't like the fact he's trying to neglect me. I know i sound like a spoiled kid but i'm far from that,cuz i don't get shit most of the time if i want somethin i have to hustle to get it on my own. Being broke makes you super humble,it made me appreciate alot of what i hardly have. Now both my brothers are locked up. Now all i got left is a sister in grad school that i don't really have a relationship with. I don't think i have ever felt so lonely in my entire life til now. Ever since my mom passed away man i feel like i have a cloud over me. One of my friends told me that it looks like i'm aging. I really hope he was joking cuz thats not good. Hopefully things will start to look up in the upcoming weeks.
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