Just don't understand

Why do people continue to do me dirty. This thanksgiving was good until i decided to pay some not to distant relatives a visit. All i did was waste gas and time,because i ended up getting lost. They gave me some of the dumbest directions i have ever heard. I learned this thanksgiving that the only family i have is in my house and thats just my father. Everyone else are just niggas on the street to me @ this point. No matter what people say blood is not thicker than water. My water(friends) may be thin but @ least they look out for me like blood.

As the days wind down

i've never been so ready to get off this campus. man i feel like i'm in jail sometimes minus the bars. this past weekend i skipped a lil party to do some homework. i probably sound like an abnormal college kid but i really don't get caught up in that hype. Most people that do are losers who didn't have freedom back @ home or just people who generally have nothing else to do with their life. Now i'm not bashing on partying i do believe it's fun but doing it week after week is pointless. dancing with the same sweaty broads and eye candy gets old. I really need to find something else to do with my weekends up here. I'm highly anticipating an apartment off campus. My main reason why i prefer to live off campus is because, i grow tired of being around narrow minded people all the time. I honestly don't see the fun in college, and no it's not because i go to morgan i think it's because i'm getting too mature for the people i'm around. Just sitting here dwelling i can recollect some narrow minded people i hang around. The only reason why is because, their entertaining to me. Now i'm not trying to say that i'm above anyone but i feel that my intellect just doesn't click well to certain people . On to another note i talked to my father the other day. I spoke with him about me having to retake a course next semester. Reluctantly this won't set me back @ all but it is perplexing to know that i might have to retake it. I just dislike the fact that all that hard work i put in was just disrespected. Especially when i asked the instructor for some help and he told me i'm pretty hopeless even if i do well on the final. I swear i wanted to say something ignorant to him but that wouldn't have helped my situation so i just bit my lip. I surprised to see hear that my father wasn't upset about the whole situation. He actually livened my spirit a little bit and told me he was still proud of me regardless. He also made me even happier when he told me that i received some deals in the mail from the lacoste store.

College acquaintances

i can safely say that i made alot of acquaintances @ morgan. i used to consider alot of people friends but in the end i can't trust none of these people up here. @ least i don't anymore. especially the youngins. seems like all the ones i meet just like to use me for something. i'm so tired of this bullshit. seriously from now on i'ma start spazing on people out here. i don't care what anyone thinks of me so i have no problem with expressing myself. as far as the niggas i met up here they cool or whatever but i know these niggas don't have my back like the ones back @ home. One thing i dislike about niggas is when they act brand new when a female gets thrown into the equation. now i understand u want to impress your little braud or whatever but you should get brand new and abandon you been hangin with before you met the female. that right their tells me that your a phony character, and you damn sure can't be trusted.

MWF 2

man the day i get home for thanksgiving break i am copping this game

The perfect female

ok of course theirs no such thing as a perfect female we're all human but this is my definition of a "wifey" type female. She gotta have a mature demeanor, i can't stand females that act like a little high schooler. she has to be ambitious,no man on earth likes a lazy woman that just sits around doing nothin. Down to earth, this is probably one of the most important out of any of the characteristics that i list. if you suppose to be my girl you have to keep it real with me. i dislike wishy washy women. cause @ the end of the day if you can't keep it real with yourself who can you be real with??? Independent,this one speaks for itself now one wants anyone living off em. last but most importantly spontaneous. i need a girl that will make me smile and has a good sense of humor. so you this post is pretty much a wish list. lord knows when i'll find a female like this.until then i'ma jus chill cuz i'm the type of nigga that never settles for less.

I've Learned

To stop complaining about my situations as far school,bitches[women],money, no contact from family members. I say this because when i sat down and thought about it one day, all these underlying things are nothing more than obstacles in my way. this also goes for purposeless people i seem to attract around me. to throw this all together if you seem to be pulling me down in some way then i'ma cut you off. reason why is because if your a real quote on quote friend you would try to help. not just hang around me just for your personal gains. So i went home this past weekend again. I must say as usual when i go home i seem to learn something that matures me. Beside that point hung out with most of the important people in my life. Had a lil movie night @ my crib. I must say that was probably one of the funniest nights i've had in a long time. i love to debate with people or @ least hear them. I would go into detail about what the issue was but it was quite comical. well to end this blog on a positive note for the first time in a long time my grades are coming up week by week.

Man

this was probably the hardest i've ever worked this week. i didn't leave the library in the past 2 days til 11 pm. last night in health class we did some type of tieboe shit. the only reason why i was kinda pissed off about it is cuz it was for extra credit for my project that my group presented last week. but the funny thing is my group didn't need no extra credit and my teacher didn't even notify the class about it. believe me if i knew we was gonna do fighting techniques for one straight hour without a break i would have most definitely skipped class. So after that i just went straight to the library because, i had an exam the next morning for history. so i got a little study group together. i felt like we didn't accomplish much cuz some random guy started talking about a bunch of different weeds. So after a while we left. then i decided to review one last time for the night. once 11:30 hit i just hit the showers and called it a night. So i dosed off to sleep to robot chicken. I dreamed of me and my mom going to a random house gathering. i can't really remember what we were doin there.but i do remember when we were about to leave she kept saying by i love you over and over. then i was like who am i suppose to talk to now that your leaving. Then she just faded away right in front of me so i just said i love you back and woke up.