Down Hill

man i tell you it's like day by my life seems to get rougher. i'm not even gonna front people can even see it when i'm at school. i had a old female friend write me a note saying that she hates to see me looking distressed. i was actually shocked that she really notice or even cared. that just showed me who really looks out for me. but the reason why i'm down is because,for some odd reason i'm failing like 5 classes,note even if that happens i would still graduate cuz of the past 3 quarters but, i want my grades to be good @ the end of the year so i can hopefully get a scholarship of some sort. also to make matters even worse for me my dad just talked to me about how i might have to go to a community college now because he claims he can't afford for me to go to morgan. my world came to a abrupt halt when he told me that. if that happens i don't even think i'll go to a community college. i think i'll find another alternative to do with my life, i just don't know what that alternative will be yet. i've been trying to turn these negatives into a positive but i honestly can't see anything good about this. i've been applying for scholarships since january and what blows me the most about this whole situation my quote on quote parents didn't even begin to get serious about my college agenda until like late march and i got accepted to morgan back in november. that kinda makes me mad cuz they've been hounding me the past few weeks about college about how i'm procrastinating when in reality their the ones that's bullshitin around. so now at this point i don't even know what to do or who to turn to anymore,i guess i'll just keep applying for more scholarships and hope to god that one of em will be enough for me to go to morgan...